This year, for the first time, I didn't do anything big to celebrate New Years.
Tia came over, we wore our grandma pj's, ate ice cream, and watched the ball drop at eleven and again at midnight. For the first time, a minute passed from 11:59 to 12:00 and it didn't feel significant. It just felt okay. A good kind of okay.
1. Write more.
And here I am, writing more. I updated my blog layout and got two poetry books for my birthday. I've been reading more. I finally opened my journal again.
2. Put together the beginnings of a book.
Inspired by the two poetry books I bought myself, I'd really like something tangible, just for myself. Especially since I've strayed from actually writing my stuff down. Maybe eventually I'd sell, but not immediately. Honestly, the production would probably cost more than I'd make.
3. Travel, specifically to California over Spring Break.
ALONE. Alone. Like, by myself. Without anyone else. On a plane. In a city I've never been to. Luckily, I'll be able to spend the week with my aunt and uncle and new little bean. Independence is something I was recognized for during my first semester at Stephens, but apparently I still need some practice because this endeavor is scaring the sh*t out of me.
4. Embrace comfort.
Sweatpants are comfy, and they can be hella cute too. Same with bralettes. Who cares if I go to a fashion school.
5. Get healthy.
Crohn's sucks. Like, a lot. And healthy is not an easy thing for me to be. (DISCLAIMER. INFLAMMATORY BOWEL DISEASE IS CHRONIC AND CANNOT BE CURED BY DIET ALONE. So shut up all you misinformed health bloggers.) But, and hold me accountable to this, I'm going to start trying to actually drink those horrible (no offense) Ensure drinks, make smoothies with protein powder, and eat a more consistent meals. Along with little, easy workouts to build back muscle mass and actually getting to bed on time. Here goes.
6. Streak medicine for as long as possible.
So more Crohn's stuff... I have this app on my phone that gives me a reminder when I need to take my medicine and tracks the days that I've completed or missed. A huge goal of mine is to not miss any days. Tall order, I know. But it honestly shouldn't be as hard as I make it.
7. Be straight up.
I am a people pleaser. I can't help it. Ellie always tells me I need to stop tiptoeing around people's feelings and stop compromising myself for others. I'm going to try to be more honest about what I want/need, with others and with myself.
8. Fall in love with yourself.
This is the first time this resolution has made it on my list. I think that says something about where I am for 2017.
Anyway, happy New Year. Hope 2017 is less scary than 2016 was.